Chaotic Neutral

So, last night there was a hellascious fight that I'm not going to describe, but for the purpose of documentation, I'm just going to point out that me and mom got into it bigtime. Everything's fine now though, so no worries.

Today, I did not go to school. I didn't feel wonderful, but I felt good enough to go school, I just didn't want to have to deal with all the people. This is becoming a problem, I think, because I feel like this most of the time. I got to sleep though, and I am beginning to wonder if my insomnia is actually me being nocturnal in a world where I have to function during the day.

On the plus side, I finally had time to watch Big Fish, which I checked out from the library ages ago. It was an ok movie, and Ewen McGregor was really cute in it, but for being a Tim Burton movie, it just didn't live up to expectation. But, like I said, Ewen McGregor was really cute in it. Sometimes he is so cute, and sometimes he is just so ugly.

Also we rented a movie on payperview called The Children. It was hella scary. There were creepy kids in it. And they were British. Yeah. It was definitely worth the five bucks it took to rent it. Dishnetwork is getting expensive.

Ok, so now to the real story I am writing this blog about. Today, Empire delivered it's second win of the week (the first being the unblogged about victory of Johnny Depp in the 100 Sexiest) when I received my weekly newsletter thing I get from them. In the opening blurb type thing, the writer mentioned recently watching a web series called The Guild. Scanning the paragraph, a few things caught my eye. Well, two things actually. Joss Whedon and Felicia Day. I almost peed my pants. It turned out that Joss Whedon doesn't direct the web series that follows the lives of the six gamers in the Knights Of Good guild, but Felicia Day does. Joss Whedon was mentioned for the Dr. Horrible thing.

Needless to say I spent six hour watching the complete first and second seasons, and what they have of the third season. It is epic. I do love it quite a bit. So, new obsession, yay! Oh, and I found out that Felicia Day was one of the potential slayers in Buffy.

Oh, and I am quite possibly going on a sort of double date tomorrow with Austin and a couple of guys from Morgantown. Not really sure about all that, but I get to see Paranormal Activity, so, again, yay!

It's Nine In The Afternoon

So, past couple of days have been kind of weird. First of all, my keyboard has decided to rebel against me by not typing every letter I hit, which is rather annoying. But, that's pretty much besides the point.

Morgan and John dated. For a day. They're broken up now, but I find it odd. I don't know why I find it odd, I basically set them up. But, I think I'm now going after him. Even though he breaks two of my rules, the no one younger and the no one preppy. Although he isn't as preppy as he seems. He's really not at all like he seems. For instance, he is developing guns. You know, biceps. Anyway, tomorrow I'm asking him if he wants to go to the movies Saturday with me and Austin. As friends of course.

For another thing, I am now officially part of Wilky's plan to get Sylvia back. I told him I was only doing it because he was the only boyfriend of hers that I actually liked. I don't think he cared.

Mr. Lewis finally went to far today. He told Tiffany that if she had done something, of which I am not really sure of, sooner, she would still have a boyfriend. Tiffany left the room in tears, and in about ten minutes Mrs.Smith was showing up at Mr. Lewis' door, giving him hell about being ot of line. I hate him, he's a son of a bitch, and his kids are going to grow up and be pigs.

Our Town (And Yours, And Yours, And Yours)

So, I just got home from the final performance of Our Town at The Kentucky Repertory Theatre. I am now very sad, because this was a lot of fun. I made a lot of new friends, such as Emily and Andrew, who are amazing. Emily reminds me of me crossed with Tiffany. Which is cool, because they are her upward bound friends. They're from Allen county, who don't suck like I initially thought, they were just kind of off during that practice or something. The Larue county kids were stuckup. Well, most of them. I like Holly, and Holly's friend. And Gretchen was pretty cool.

The coolst thing was between the two shows today. We totally just wandered arond the theatre and walked around the buildings outside of it. I wasn't wearing pants, just leggings, and it was 40 degrees. So, I froze. We went to this awesome litle store that Jacob and I went to yesterday, called the Gypsey's Closet. It's awesome. They sell bongs. And witchcraft type stuff. They actually have some books on it in the back. And the outside is painted purple. I bought two bumperstickers, two feathers, five bracelets, one ring, and a worry doll, which is supposed to take a way all your worries. I don't really know if it works though. I hope it does.

Also, between the plays, a bunch of us played improv games on the stage. We felt really weird playing improv games on the stage of the Kentucky Repertory Theatre. We played this one game called The Connection Game, where someone stood onstage and says "Hi my name is So-And-So and I Such-And-Such." If you had what they said about themself in common with them, you had to sprint to the stage and hold their hand. I ended up holding hands with Katelyn, because we love music, and with John, because we are unnaturally obsessed with 90's music.

One of the coolest things, in my opinion, would have to be the circle. When we did it on Friday, we Edmonson County kids just kind of got in our circle to do our pre-show ritual, and some Allen county kids and a couple of Larue kids just came over and joined us. We did not expect this at all, but we let them in. the circle kept growing too, and by our last show is was almost everyone. I find this awesome.

Last night I went to Austin's party. He totally put a condom on his foot. It didn't break for a while either. I also stood outside in a puddle, barefoot, in, like, 30 degree weather. On the phone. With Cole. Yeah, Tiffany's ex boyfriend. I just called him to see if he was ok which he wasn't, but he also didn't want to talk to me, so I didn't realy help him at all. I did tell him that I still consider him one of my friends though, and that definitely didn't make things worse.

So I Hate You (Who Cares?)

I posted a blog on myspace about Aaron, but I just know he hasn't read it. He won't read it either. I'm so fed up with him I can't even believe it. But, whatever, I'm done.

We went to Horse Cave Theatre today. Well, Kentucky Repertoire Theatre, but close enough. It's huge backstage. Dooley said it wasn't that big back there, but it is huge, especially compared to our backstage. The sad thing is, we did so much better there than we do at our school. It makes no sense, I know, but it was true. And then Allen county launched into the third act, because that's their act, and Larue county wasn't there today. They made us look Broadway good they sucked so much. I felt bad for them. There was a cute guy in a Power Rangers t shirt from there though, and he was pretty good.

So, tomorrow is the show. The one for the schools. I'm extremely nervous. Awesome.

Where's Your Fearless Leader Now?

I haven't written recently because I have found myself absorbed in my new hobby. Yelling at random people on myyearbook. It is very stress relieving, and I even got Morgan to do it with me. I just look for an obnoxious forum, and start some trouble. It's great, because I don't know any of these people. Although, in about March, there will be a 19 year-old new mother driving over from Reno to kick my ass, because I told her her baby would be ugly due to genetics, and because I then proceeded to tell her that she should donate some of her forehead to burn victims, because she would still have plenty left over. I am devilish.

I talked to Aaron today, for about five minutes on myspace instant message, until his quit. They should seriously fix that. We didn't really talk about anything, but he didn't seem like he was trying to end the conversation or anything. Rereading those lines, it totally sounds like he just signed off mid conversation, but mine does it all the time too, so I doubt it was the case.

Jared has a girlfriend now. He was still totally flirting with me in Spanish though. He makes no sense to me. None at all.

You Say Heroine, I Say Heroin

Last night I was too pissed off to blog. I decided to torture myself and look at Aaron's myspace prfile. Somehow, I am still his number four. How the hell that is, I'm not entirely sure. Loren, his sister, was on, and I came that close to messaging her and asking her if her brother was on drugs or something. But I think she might tell him if I asked her that. Me thinks he would not appreciate me asking his little sister if he was on drugs.

He has no idea what it's like to wake up every morning to thoughts of him. I wake up, and I think of him, and my heart breaks all over again. I thought girls who said stuff like that were just being dramatic, but it's true. I really do feel that way. I'm not mad at him about not returning my feelings, I got over that a long time ago. It's the fact that he's avoiding me over something he thinks could be true. Because I never once confirmed my feelings to him. Never. Fuck him.

Well, on a lighter note, I went shopping today. I know, I was supposed to go yesterday, but Moms was sick (Shock Shock) so we went today. I ended up not getting my hair cut. It was kinda my choice. For one thing, I didn't really want to sit in that chair for god knows how long, and for another, I'm still not entirely sure what I want done to the back.


I bought a bunch of crap today. I bought a Mighty Morphin Power Rangers t shirt and leather jacket at JCPenny's. The leather jacket doesn't sound me, but it totally is. At Hot Topic I bought the Mayday Parade CD, a t shirt, and blue hair dye. Yes, that's right, blue hair dye. And Mom knows about it too. I'm going to streak it tomorrow. At Fye I bought Stay Alive, which I have wanted for a while now. At Wal-Mart I bought Transformers band-aids (For Real), orange earbuds, and Boys Like Girls' CD. Bother those CDs are excellent, by the way. Oh, any my Glee t shirt got here today, and it is also excellent. Over fall break I believe that I accumulated a week's worth of new shirts. Paramore, Mayday Parade, Glee, Mighty Morphin Power Rangers, and Wolverine. That's five, and I have five days of school in a week. I am uber excited.

Going back over this week's posts, I realized that I somehow managed to leave out something that happened, that's pretty major. A certain friend of mine that I have been flirting with texted me the other night, and he was drunk. So for the last few days I have been pondering something. A guy tells you that he is interested in someone else, but he texts you when he's drunk. I see nothing here that makes any sense. But, I don't have to worry about him doing ti again, due to the fact that I went 300 texts over my limit last month, and won't have texting until the 27th of this month, if even then.

The Philosophy Of Ninjas

If they have one, I can't tell you it. Sorry.

Soon, I think I will begin work on my Buffy: The Philosophy. I think I could do it. I got Oz's story down, Buffy's is pretty much self-explanatory, and I'm beginning to understand the Faith thing. I just got off of Barnes And Noble's website, and people are pretty serious about dissecting Buffy and determining the many different meanings of the metaphors. Yeesh.

Oh, I bought Ramen Noodles today. I have yet to eat them, but this excites me. I hope they're good. It just seems to me that I am going to be a lot cooler if I eat Ramen Noodles. Cooler to myself, I mean. I think it's socially weird to eat them, actually, but whatever. Through the package, it feels like a rice cake. Which I also bought today. Honey Nut flavored. They are very delightful. I bought this stuff in hopes of starting a diet, but I also bought a donut, a pound of Swedish Fish, and a Hershey's bar. Oh, and Spree this morning. All I have left of that is the Hershey's bar. I feel about ten pounds heavier. Oh well.

When typing the tags for this, I was shocked to see that Buffy has not been tagged yet. That must have been my summer blog.

Getting Back To Business

About a year ago, I set out to write something that wasn't just me trying to escape from my head. I write a lot, and not just this blog. I write a lot of short stories. Very very rarely do I ever finish one, and when I do, it isn't worth reading, because usually it's just a blank character standing in for me, saying and doing all the things I wish I could. So now, I'm giving that up. It didn't really help anyway. Not enough to really matter. I started a story two nights ago and I can't even remember anything about it now. It's just time for something new.

So now, I'm going to do it. I'm going to write what I've been trying to write about for the last year. I'm going to take Sarah Dessen's voice, Diablo Cody's language, my friends' quirks, and my own personality, and I'm going to make something great. Or at least I'm going to give it my best shot.

So, for the next few weeks - hell, maybe even months - I will be immersing myself into the details. This has always been something I've needed to work on, and now, I'm actually going to do it. I have twenty-five bucks, maybe I'll buy a book on writing when we go to Bowling Green on Thursday.

Muahahaha (And Other Short Stories)

Today was spent lounging around in my pajamas, watching movies and eating too many pretzels. I feel like poop. I don't know what I have although I do know it isn't swine flu. On the plus side, I get the remote no questions asked when I'm sick. I watched some very good movies today too. So, of course I have to talk about them.

First off this morning would be When Harry Met Sally, which came on ABC Family. I had never actually seen this movie until today, and it was wonderful. Of course, after In The Land Of Women, I have found myself partial to Meg Ryan. But that is besides the point. I also agree with Harry's philosophy that men and women can never be friends because of the sexual tension. I agree almost completely. I am friends with some guys that I would never think about having sex with, and they would never think about having sex with me. As a whole though, that is true.

Then I watched Hot rod on Encore. This was solely because there was absolutely nothing to watch. It turned out to be a lot better than I thought it would be. It's not Brittany's-New-Favorite-Movie good, but it's pretty funny. If I catch it on TV again, I may just watch it. Although, I do still have a grudge about the whole special episode of Scarred thing, which was totally misleading...

After Hot Rod, I watched Grosse Pointe Blank, a movie that, thanks to Empire and Sporcle, I have wanted to see for a while now. For one thing, if both those sites love it, AND it's got John Cusack in it, it's the movie for me, because I love that man. A lot. He is the everyman, more than any other everyman there ever was. He's so attractive in that way that you can never quite put your finger on, except that you know it has something to do with an attractive dork. Anyway, if you've ever seen that movie, he is a hitman. Now, for those of you who don't know me very well, I find movie hitmen very attractive. For god's sake, one of my favorite movies is Mr. And Mrs. Smith, and I don't watch it just for Vince Vaughn. Bangkok Dangerous ain't to shabby either. I'm a sick, sick individual, I know.

Now, for the final movie, I watched Mermaids. Which has absolutely nothing to do with Mermaids, I am just going to point that out right now. Although Cher does at one point dress up like one. And yes, I said Cher. It's OK though, Christina Ricci and Winona Ryder are both in it. Anyway, it is a hilarious movie and I love it. I recommend it.

Now, on a side note, I have found myself addicted to the websites www.fmylife.com and www.mylifeisaverage.com. Very entertaining stuff.

Matthew Gray Gubler: A Love Story

If you don't know by now that I watch Criminal Minds, either I am very lax in my explanations of things I love or you're an idiot. Don't take offense, it's probably the first one. Anyway, of all the Criminal Minds peeps, I am completely in love with Spencer Reid. He would be my fictional boyfriend if i had one. Since I love Spencer Reid and all that he represents, it is only natural that I love Matthew Gray Gubler as well, for delivering unto me, a perfectly quirked, screwed up in the head in a way that makes you love him character. Recently, Matthew Gray Gubler has also been in one of my new favorite movies, 500 Days Of Summer. So, all around, he is just plain awesomeness. I found out earlier, after cyber stalking for about half an hour, that he was a model for Marc Jacobs, Louis Vuitton, and some others. I google images him for some pics of this, and I found some delectable shots of this and more. So, for your viewing pleasure, here they are.

Can't Be To Careful Anymore

Today was the first day of fall break. Yay! I do love me some fall break. Me and Mom went to Bowling Green today. I got a shitload of stuff too, if I do say so myself. I got the new Paramore CD, the new Three Days Grace CD, a scarf, a Fred sticker, a Paramore t shirt, a Wolverine t shirt, and purple lights to string around my ceiling. But, i can't do that until we get some black thumbtacks next week, because we have no way to hold them to the wall. But still, I am pretty excited about that. It's going to look absolutely epic.

I'm listening to the Paramore CD right now, and so far it is pretty damn good. Of course, I'm not surprised, it's Paramore, and I do love them. It came with a free poster, of them on the cover of AP last month.

Next week, I'm getting my hair cut, and I'm pretty sure I'm getting the second holes in my ears pierced again. I'm pretty happy about that.