This Song Will Always Be For You (Forever And Never)

You know, the characters that one identifies themself with really says a lot about a person. I've known this for a long time, but it just astounds me, sometimes, the characters that make me think of myself. For one, Dr. Horrible is me. Well, he has more penis, is hotter, and is played by a gay man, but the point is, the basic identity of Dr. Horrible, or Billy, as his "alter-ego" introduces himself to Penny, is just like mine. He is an everyman that will never ever be completely satisfied with that. He chooses the supervillian approach to getting out of his everyman rut, but that's just a huge metaphor for not being inherently good, which no one, not even Nathan Fillion's Captain Hammer, can possibly be.

Dr. Horrible isn't exactly a creature of evil though, he's just trying to make a way for himself in a world he doesn't completely understand. He's just trying to show The Girl that he's not just a loser, and he tries to do it the only way he can, which is being his not-so-good-or-perfect self.

Listening to the song "Brand New Day" from the show earlier made me realize that I just wish I could do that. Not kill anyone, obviously, just say "to hell with all this shit about pretending to be good. I'm not good." Don't get me wrong here, I'm not trying to pretend I'm evil or anything, because I'm not. I just don't even believe in superheroes. And by that I mean that I don't think anyone out there can do something good without ever having a single selfish motive behind it. And doing something good for a selfish reason doesn't make it doing something bad, the good was still done. It just takes the hero out of it.

It's like how people always talk about how police officers and firemen and such are these great heroes, when really they're just men and women earning a paycheck. Sure, they weren't forced into the job, they chose to do it, but they all choose to do it for selfish reasons. But, like I said, a good thing done for selfish reasons is still a good thing.

I don't know, I'm sorry, I know this blog jumped around randomly with all sorts of crazy sidesteps that never seemed to get back on course, but I just needed to rant my heart out, and this was the only place I could do it that wouldn't lose me a friend or two. So, feel free to just pretend you never read any of this crap.