Vitamin R (Leading Us Along)

Good song. By Chevelle. Anyway, to the good stuff.


So, last Monday I got really pissed off about something that I can't even remember now, and I wrote Aaron this note telling him that I think it is really stupid that we aren't friends anymore, and then at the end of it I told him we could go back to being friends like we were, or this fake friendship thing we have going on can end. One or the other, and he has to pick. I didn't think I'd give it to him.

Then Friday night rolled around. He was in Tom Sawyer, the Drama I play. It kinda sucked, but that's beside the point. I sat with Erin and his little sister Loren. I got pissed all over again, and so after the play, when the actors came out into the audience, I gave it to him. Then I promptly tried to leave, but instead had a panic attack in the back corner of the auditorium. I scared the shit out of Dalton and Erin.

So, I was totally dreading today all weekend. I couldn't even properly enjoy The Men Who Stare At Goats with Austin. Really good movie by the way, although it's mostly about LSD. But it has Ewen McGregor and George Clooney in it. Anyway, I get to school this morning, and he's not even there. He's not, as a matter of fact, going to be back all week because he's sick. So, while cleaning up the auditorium during fourth block with a few other drama kids, I said something about not being able to talk to him about it for a week, and Dooley comes up behind me and says "Oh, talk to him about that note you gave him?"

So apparently, he talked to her about it, but not me. I'm very confused about that. However, I just sent him a message on myspace saying, "I gotta know, do you hate me or are we good again?"

Suckage.