Vertical Horizon. Or, if you like country music, Gary Allan. But it's Vertical Horizon's song.
So, I haven't really done much since I last posted. Jared and I ended up not going to see Dead Serious About Life, which is fine I guess. Morgan thinks I should keep trying there, but I don't think he likes me, so I don't really see the point of it. I'm just going to get my hopes up once again, and be let down...Once again. It's not like I'm being all "Woe is me, I can't find a boyfriend for the heartbreak" (although, in my defense, it is kind of true) I'm just tired of going after guys that really don't like me.
There's a guy. I'm not going to put his name, because I'm not 100% sure that no one from my school reads this. I know I'm really open with everything about me, but that's my choice, and they're my secrets. I don't even know if he cared if everyone knew, but I'm not going to just assume that. Anyway, this guy, will just pretend his name actually is Guy. Guy told me Friday night that he loves me. That he's had a thing for me for a long time, for about as long as I had a thing for Aaron, plus the month or so that I've been over him. He was being insanely sweet about everything. He even called me beautiful. He wants me to give him a chance, and I want to give him one, it's just that I don't have a thing for him. I did for about a week's time my sophomore year, but I got over that. The thing is, I don't want to break his heart more than anyone's ever wanted to not break someone's heart. I know what it's like to be him. I mean, I loved Aaron for two and a half years and he never wanted me. I would've killed for a chance to be with him, and that's exactly what Guy told me. Morgan doesn't think I should give him a chance, because he's one of those guys that just uses girls to get laid. But he told me he's only been doing that because he's only ever really cared about me. I can't see any kind of future with him (and I'm not talking marriage or kids or anything, I'm talking in the next year). I just DO NOT want to hurt him. I want to be able to give him a chance...
On a lighter note, I hung out with Danny and Joseph Saturday night. We tried to go play at kyrock, but then we started talking about scary movies, and ran away. Then we somehow ended up driving on a back road in Brownsville, eating ice cream at Dairy Queen, and then back at Kyrock, where we kind of played while watching each other's backs. It was hilarious. Joseph and Nikki are friends again. I just can't wait until those too idiots finally realize they are meant to be. Like, I know people say that about people all the time, but these two really are. They totally love each other and are too stupid to admit it.
Oh, Aaron and Ashton broke up. He's pretty broken hearted. I hope they get back together soon.
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