Is It Getting Better, Or Do You Feel The Same?

"One" by U2. Not Glee. I love Glee, but they did a shitty job of that song.

So, I know I kind of left you high and dry, but until today, blogging felt like a big waste of time. But I feel better now. Anyway, so Tuesday, May 25th, was visitation. I finally cried. Cody Garmon hugged me and said he wasn't ready for this and I just started crying and saying that I wasn't either. But, when Lloyd came around, my tears dried up for him. I had to be strong for Lloyd. I didn't go look at him. I couldn't do that. For one thing, I have a photographic memory, and I never would've gotten that out of my head, and for another thing, everyone said it didn't look like him anyway.

Wednesday, May 26th, was the funeral. I ended up not going to the graveside service, but I went to the part at the funeral home. There were a lot of people there. When Erin got there I took her under my wing and made sure she was ok. I didn't cry until the very end, when they started playing "Don't Stop Believing." He loved that freaking song. I felt like I couldn't stop crying too, but I managed to get myself under control in Morgan's car.

The Dooley's were Monday, May 24th. I didn't win anything, but Ben did. He won sophomore thespian. We voted on that the Wednesday before too.

Now, in news that isn't so depressing.

I ended up at Glee Night at MattLong's house the night of Ben's visitation. It was pretty fun, and it took my mind off things. It was the Lady Gaga/Kiss episode. I got a futon two weeks ago. It's black and it's all nice and cushy. My only problem with it is that I don't sleep to well on it. But, then again, I don't sleep to well in general. Morgan began a secret "love affair" with John Kinsey on Monday, and he broke up with her last night. Not really a big thing, but kind of funny. Nikki and Andy broke up, and now Joseph and Nikki are talking again. I went to graduation with him. It was a depressing affair.

Also, I do not plan on doing the whole summer blog thing this year. It was kind of dumb, and I wish I knew how to merge blogs, and just get rid of the summer one.